DONT TELL ME / written by Jody Walker for her son Shane 1998

This is what i have told so many people when they tell me that someone they know or love has passed, jodi put this on paper.... she absolutely wrote exactly how i feel............. 

DONT TELL ME 
Friday, July 8, 2011 at 1:13pm

Don't Tell Me
Please don't tell me you know how I feel,
Unless you have lost your child too,
Please don't tell me my broken heart will heal,
Because that is just not true,
Please don't tell me my son is in a better place,
Though it is true, I want him here with me,
Don't tell me someday I'll hear his voice, see his face,
Beyond today I cannot see,
Don?t tell me it is time to move on,
Because I cannot,
Don?t tell me to face the fact he is gone,
Because denial is something I can't stop,
Don't tell me to be thankful for the time I had,
Because I wanted more,
Don't tell me when I am my old self you will be glad,
I'll never be as I was before,
What you can tell me is you will be here for me,
That you will listen when I talk of my child,
You can share with me my precious memories,
You can even cry with me for a while,
And please don't hesitate to say his name,
Because it is something I long to hear everyday,
Friend please realize that I can never be the same,
But if you stand by me, you may like the new person I become someday.

Judi Walker
(In Memory of Shane)
Copyright 1998

Candys Thoughts: July 14 th 2011

Candys Thoughts: July 14 th 2011: "The time is 0201, i am tired but cannot sleep. It has been one yr, 4 months and 6 days since my son has passed away. I have met others w..."

July 14 th 2011

The time is 0201,  i am tired but cannot sleep.  It has been one yr, 4 months and  6 days since my son has passed away.  I have met others who have lost a son, a husband, another child,  i have learned so much and i will continue to learn.  The pain is still real,  my heart, my soul ,  my mind aches , some days i cry so hard my head hurts.  One thing i have learned .............   in councelling they said if you have to cry .......cry it doesnt matter where you are, who you are with....   and i do.   
    I know that God has his hand on everything.  If it were not for the grace of God i would not be able to make it.  I know I am blessed with the support system i have, God,  Friends, Family, Eric is my rock.  He has been through so much with me.  
   I know everything I go through,  I am going to meet someone who is going thruough the same thing. 
I always tell them,  I am not special, I am not strong,  I could not have made it with out God.  If I can do this so can you.  i have come across some poems i will be posting on here.  Truly i wish i had been the person to write them.   I have not written a poem since Shane passed away March 8th 2010.  
   Praying you have a blessed day and you realize,  
I can do all things through Christ which strengthenth me............ 
Though I am weak,  through Christ I am made strong.  it is only through him i have survived......
have a blessed day