Good Morning March 29th 2012 :D

   Good Morning  Thursday  :D
I am so excited to get my new leg.  I have a photo of my son in his sheriffs uniform laughing 
and showing his muscles.  I am going to ask them if they put that on the leg to honor my son.  
I am going to attach a small black ribbon to it,  to show FALLEN OFFICER...........
Shane my son is my hero and always will be.  He would be so proud of me :D
   My motto is .....LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE GRUMPY.........  even through all of my surgeries
the death of my son in 2010, my nephew's leg being burned from his high thigh to his ankle..he was 12 at the time,  recently my nephew who will be 18 in June, was in a bad car accident. We were not sure that day if he was going to make it.  He did Thank you Jesus :D   Five broken ribs and one of them 
puncutred his lung.  The Dr.'s told him if he smoked or drank, his lung would not have healed.  
 My son was a good kid, and my neices and nephews are good kids.  No they are not perfect and sometimes ornery but they dont go out and party, they dont do drugs.

 I tell them all the time how proud of them I am.  
    I am proud that I come from a close knit family.  I am thankful God has also blessed me with 
friends who have become my extended family.  They also have been here with me through everything I have been through.  Between My Fiancee' , family and friends. I know I am truly Blessed.
   God is wonderful and I have so much to be thankful for.  

November 9th 2011

    Today I saw my surgeon,  When he walked in the first thing he asked was,.........
 " Well have you decided what you would like to do?  "    I smiled,  I knew he was
making sure that this is what I truly wanted.  I very adamently said  with a smile
"  Dr.  Soliman,  I definetly want this and more than that I need this , it is getting much
worse adn much harder to to walk.  "  
   That was the start of this Journey.  he was going to set it up for two week later.  I know my
eyes widened as I said ........  NO ,  I do not want this during the Holidays.  My cousin
Carol is coming to stay with me the end of January.  Sometimes not living close to family is hard
not only missing them but this surgery will be my right leg :D  that means NO DRIVING ......
at least not for awhile.   If you have not read my story  ........ GOD WILL SEE ME THROUGH IT......
please take time to read it.   It is God who will get me through this.  He is my strength,  my rock,
he has blessed me with  wonderful family and friends,  and my cousin Carol is definetly
a God send if I need her for one hour or one year,  she is willing to stay with Eric and I to help us.
   One of the nice things about Carol coming down. When Eric is off or when he takes his week off,
her cousin ,  my former sister in law,  also named Candy  has an extra room and Carol is able to stay with her and her family which will ger her away from our house and she can have a nice break.
      I am so thankful and blessed,  to have so many good people in my life.
Our neighbors Jeff and Laura are wonderful.  They called me to let me know that they will do what they can to get off if I need help with going somewhere.  
     Yes  this Journey is just the beginning,  it will be long, it will not be easy.  I have always believed
the attitude in which we do things .......is a major factor in our healing process ,  because if we go into
things with bad attitude,  we do not have peace of mind.  It doesnt come easy and some people are
not willing to work on their attitude because it is not easy and it is uncomfortable to them.
    TAKE THE PATH LESS TRAVELED AND REAP THE REWARDS OF  PEACE OF MIND
Have a wonderful day and thank you for visiting my site and reading about my life.
Sincerly  Candy

July 14 th 2011

The time is 0201,  i am tired but cannot sleep.  It has been one yr, 4 months and  6 days since my son has passed away.  I have met others who have lost a son, a husband, another child,  i have learned so much and i will continue to learn.  The pain is still real,  my heart, my soul ,  my mind aches , some days i cry so hard my head hurts.  One thing i have learned .............   in councelling they said if you have to cry .......cry it doesnt matter where you are, who you are with....   and i do.   
    I know that God has his hand on everything.  If it were not for the grace of God i would not be able to make it.  I know I am blessed with the support system i have, God,  Friends, Family, Eric is my rock.  He has been through so much with me.  
   I know everything I go through,  I am going to meet someone who is going thruough the same thing. 
I always tell them,  I am not special, I am not strong,  I could not have made it with out God.  If I can do this so can you.  i have come across some poems i will be posting on here.  Truly i wish i had been the person to write them.   I have not written a poem since Shane passed away March 8th 2010.  
   Praying you have a blessed day and you realize,  
I can do all things through Christ which strengthenth me............ 
Though I am weak,  through Christ I am made strong.  it is only through him i have survived......
have a blessed day