Scanning My Leg

Hello Family and Friends, :D
  I am so excited..... Yesterday Brandon from Advanced Prosthetics came by.
Thank goodness for mobile units :D ,  he brought his equipment in,  placed 
saran wrap around my leg, then placed this  large soft pliable rubber stocking 
over my leg, he measured, marked it, then placed a velcro band around it ..
I have to laugh, there was a small square box on this velcro, it kind of reminded
me of a dog collar when they are enclosed in an invisible electric fence :D 
  He took out what I commented on it looked like a radar gun.  In the mean time
he got his computer up and running, then he began to scan my leg,  I actually watched
it come up on the computer.  I could see the computer building it, scanning it, then it 
began to turn and Brandon could see the whole leg. This will be sent to orlando for them 
to make it, then it will be shipped to his office in Mount Dora ( a beautiful quaint town )
there they will put it all together.  May 8th Brandon will be back, he will see what 
adjustments need to be made, take it away again for another two weeks,  and when 
he comes back....... YEAHHHH !!!!!  my leg will be back.....  I cannot tell you 
how excited I am over this.
     I keep telling my mom ...... Dont't sweat the small stuff.........  our life depends
on our attitude, how do we think? Negative? Positive?  Are we Determined or 
Do we give UP? Are we Tenacious?  Are we ambitious?  I do my best to be postive,  it is the postive attitude that will get me through what life throws at me.  It is my Determination that will absolutely
keep me from giving up.  I am like a bulldog :D I am tenacious, I keep on going,  I refuse to 
let wild horses, rain , hail, or things that come my way to prevent me from succeeding in 
doing my very best, if  I do my best...... :D that is all I can do, nothing more, and I sure 
will not do anything less.  Ambition?  I like to think I have plenty of ambition and now
that I have a new lease on life without  pain......... My ambitions can be brought to 
reality.  
    I wish I would have taken photos of what Brandon was doing, the truth is 
I was so excited, and tired,  :D  I didnt even think about it.  I had an early 
morning Appt with my Surgeon. Eric was not able to take me and I am blessed
to have great neighbors, Jeff took me to the Drs office, wheelchair and all. 
I took him to lunch for taking me. We had sushi, at  ......Wasabi Bar and Grill........
by the time I got home to say the least I was whooped.  Ready for bed yet excited 
about the prospects of Brandon coming to measure my leg.  
   Wishing Everyone a wonderful, Positive , Blessed day..........
looking forward to showing you my leg.  
Candy

Last Nights Dream

  Last night was a rough night,  not because of  my amputation but because my son passed 
away March of 2010, just before his 25th birthday.  It really doesnt make any differance
how excited a person is to get  her / his new leg. We have things in our lives that can 
knock us off of our platforms.   The one thing we have to remember is ............
We have to get back up, brush ourselves off and keep on going.  Attitude, Determination
tenacity, all contribute to our healing, mentally as well as physically.  
  They say when you lose someone you love passes away, it gets easier.  It may for them
I however have not found this too be true for me.  My son passed away suddenly and 
I still have melt downs,  I still feel like this is a bad dream.  I will wake up and my son will be here.
   And through all of this........... I still have to live, I still have to go on every day and do the very best 
that I can.  I also tell my self that if Shane were here, he would be proud of me for doing as well as 
I am re: my amputation, my leg, my new prosthetic,  not allowing the surgery to get me down.
    I come from a long line of strong men and women, determined, to do what is right,
determined to always do our best.   That is one things I told my son every day........
Shane , the only thing I ask is you ALWAYS DO THE VERY BEST YOU CAN.........
 There will always be someone who can do better but if you are doing the best you 
can........... that is what counts in the end...
   There is no way I am going to break my promise to shane that this what we do.  
We continue to always do our best.   
Shane I love you with all of my heart.  I wish you were here so you could see
my new leg when it comes.  
  I pray each of you that is going through something to never give up, never
quit,  just keep on going,   be determined,  have ambition, be tenacious,  :D 
These things will get you through.  
have a great day 

Candy 

NEW STUMP SHRINKER

  I have been so excited.  I got my stump shrinker.  I know........  I know......  :D  how can anyone
be excited over a stump shrinker?  I am because that makes me two weeks closer to my new 
leg.  
  If you are not sure what a stump shrinker is, don't feel bad :D I didn't either.  
A stump shrinker is a very long tube sock open at both ends.  It has a ring in the middle that slides. 
It is compared to a compression sock that is thicker and tighter.  For me it feels good, better than 
the ace bandages.  The ace bandages have uneven pressure and it really doesn't matter how
well it is wrapped.  The stump shrinker evens out the pressure and that feels much better. 
     I have only had it on for three days now.  I found out I wear a size 4.  No that doesnt mean I am

skinny it means my calf is 13 inches.   
    To put it on,  slide one end of the sock over your leg to about 2 inches above the knee
slide the ring  up to make the sock tight,  step 2.....  like a regular sock,  take the top of the sock
and slide it over the other sock until it is the same as the previous.  :D  this sock should be tight.
Your Prosthetician will measure your leg, and decide what size you will wear for two weeks.
  Joe who came to the house for me to sign papers and also to bring me another stump shrinker
explained to me that in less than two weeks it will be falling off, this is normal so don't panic.
     As my stump shrinks I will post photos of my progress.   For me this is a wonderful new journey
it is normal to feel a little depressed, angry, in my case this amputation is at my request.  I needed this to finish living.  With my right shin detoriating,  I could not even walk.  
  It takes determination,  ambition, good attitude,  and most of all,  .........
NEVER EVER GIVE UP................  
 have  a great day and take it one step at a time 

Therapy for all things

  I have found many things to keep my mind occupied and as I call it ....MY THERAPY.......
here is a link to my webshots.  I hope you enjoy watching them or looking at them as I 
enjoyed taking them



by candynestor

TO SLEEP OR NOT TO SLEEP ?

Good Very Early Morning :D 
  ( as I rub My sleepy eyes)  and yawn :D  


    I am up early this morning and probably will take a nap later.  
The one thing ( out of many  :D )  When a person has any type of surgery,  it is soooooo important to take care of the body that God has blessed us with.  Sometimes we think we are taking care of our
bodies when in reality we are harming it.  
    My gymnastics hurt my body when I thought I was taking care of it.  Since my amputation I have fallen three times.  It is just as strange as the phantom pains.  I lose my balance,  everything seems like slow motion,  yet I cannot seem to grab on to anything.  each time my mind is trying to protect 
my right leg that has the amputation.  I fall in what seems to be fairly gently  :D   I know ..........
I know..... how can a person fall gently?  lol  Well  by the third so called GENTLE FALL, 
it has knocked out my bones and the pain in my neck and back are the same as it was before my surgery.    
    I have a wonderful chiropractor, I firmly believe in them but the only ones that I will go to are the ones who graduated from PALMER UNIVERSITY.  The reason for this is because ,  a while back before Eric and I got together I dated a Professional Golfer. He owned a golf course, taught the high school students in the area and of course adults as well.    He went to a chiropractor and woke up three days later in the hospital.  I know alot of people who have been going to this dr for many years and liked him.  My friends eyes were blurry, He couldn't adjust them ..... they just would not focus properly. 
        One year later, he still could not see as well.  The reason for this is the chiropractor, like many use to  and still do...........  instead of gently pressing the neck bones back into place, they take your head and twist it quickly.   I have been to a couple Drs who did this.  Never again !!!   
        The chiropractors from Palmer University,  use a great technique  they gently massage your muscles in the area and then gently push them back into place and for those who have alot of arthritis or bones that are detoriating, they use this little tool they place in the area and it very very gently it moves those sore bones very slowly. This procedure takes more time because it moves the bones barely to avoid the pain.  I asked my chiropractor one time what that little object was.  My dr explained to me what I described above. When he put it on my back, all I heard was a little click and felt nothing.  
         For me, that would not work, but others come in that the pressing they have to do on me would quite painful for them.  
    My third fall has put me in a postition I need to go back tomorrow.  I always love going and feel so much better when I walk out, but I was going to wait until I got my new leg.
  I wanted to say ......PLEASE DO YOUR BEST TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR BODY....... after all it is the only one you will every have.  This reminds me of the movie......
DEATH BECOMES HER  with Meryl Streep and Goldie Hawn.  Of course we cannot live for ever but the time God has given to us we need to protect and care for what he has given us.  
  Praying all  have a blessed day and praying you are pain free today......... 
Have a wonderful day and upcoming Weekend :D 
sending hugs and prayers  xoxo

Good Morning March 29th 2012 :D

   Good Morning  Thursday  :D
I am so excited to get my new leg.  I have a photo of my son in his sheriffs uniform laughing 
and showing his muscles.  I am going to ask them if they put that on the leg to honor my son.  
I am going to attach a small black ribbon to it,  to show FALLEN OFFICER...........
Shane my son is my hero and always will be.  He would be so proud of me :D
   My motto is .....LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE GRUMPY.........  even through all of my surgeries
the death of my son in 2010, my nephew's leg being burned from his high thigh to his ankle..he was 12 at the time,  recently my nephew who will be 18 in June, was in a bad car accident. We were not sure that day if he was going to make it.  He did Thank you Jesus :D   Five broken ribs and one of them 
puncutred his lung.  The Dr.'s told him if he smoked or drank, his lung would not have healed.  
 My son was a good kid, and my neices and nephews are good kids.  No they are not perfect and sometimes ornery but they dont go out and party, they dont do drugs.

 I tell them all the time how proud of them I am.  
    I am proud that I come from a close knit family.  I am thankful God has also blessed me with 
friends who have become my extended family.  They also have been here with me through everything I have been through.  Between My Fiancee' , family and friends. I know I am truly Blessed.
   God is wonderful and I have so much to be thankful for.  

ODE TO THE CHAMPIONS

Written By:  Tom Krause

                                                 ODE TO THE CHAMPIONS

Who are the these people ------
these doers of deeds
These dreamer of dreams
Who make us believe?

Who are these people
Who still wint he day
When the odds are against the
And Strength fades away.

These people are champions,
For they never give in.
A heart beats within them
Determined to win.

They follow their dreams
Though the hourney seems far,
From the top of the mountain
They reach out to a star.

They give to us hope
From the victories they won

Sor here's to the Champions
To all their great deeds
They follow their hearts
And become winners indeed

Tom Krause